Chad Hawkins - October 18th, 2005

Today pretty much flew by. Hopefully tonight, I will be able to play some Final Fantasy XI, which I haven't played in quite a while. I have to work again tonight... Today at the pharmacy they are giving away flu shots, so hopefully the crowds will be gone by then. BTW, I recommend everyone get a flu shot this year. There isn't nearly the fuss they had last year over shortages. Still feeling down in the dumps, so hopefully that will clear up soon also.

Some thoughts:
I hope that everyone prays for the people in Taunton, Mass. where a dam break is imminent. Engineers are fearing the worst. If the dam breaks, the entire town of Taunton will be flooded with 6' of water. On top of that, if this one breaks, a dam just to the north of it will most likely fail according to engineers in the area. Here is the url for the local news story there: http://www1.whdh.com/news/articles/local/BOS7395/ I recommend you watch the video also so that you can see exactly what these people are facing.

I fear that my depression has taken on a whole new stage. It really sucks, because I haven't been happy or in a good mood in weeks. I have really been thinking a lot of stuff over these past weeks. Pondering on my life in general. The thoughts I am thinking are sometimes scary, going as far as suicide. Now, I could never actually go through with it (or so I hope), but it is scary that something like that would even come across my mind. It really really sucks, considering nothing makes me happy anymore. Not gaming, not joking around with friends, nothing, nada... The only people that lighten my spirits are my co-workers. My pharmacist and fellow technicians make my day worth living... =D See? haha.