Chad Hawkins

Well today has gone by pretty slowly. Last night, I played World of Warcraft a TON. got my Night-Elf Hunter up to level 10! He now is able to have pets etc. I am excited. Hopefully, by this summer, I will have him up to lvl 60. I was invited into a guild, and I really like it. The members are nice and active, and very helpful. They are mostly higher levels, so they know the ropes... Anyways, I am off work today (thank goodness), but have to work tomorrow night 5-9pm... =\ Oh well, need the money for future car, apartment and tuition. Well, the bell is about to ring, so I ahve to go. Have a good day!

Well, it has been a long time since I have posted on this. I was having computer troubles. To be specific, I fried my mobo... I don't know how, but I did. It took forevor for the replacement I ordered to be shipped to me. I had a wonderful holiday and new year, which I hope was the same for everyone else. I am back in school now... :( Not too fun. At least I am half-way through the year. I have final semester exams next week, so I am going to be studying my A$$ off for the next week. Senioritis is starting to take it's toll on me. Am staying up most of the night, barely getting any rest, not doing homework, the works. I have been playing a lot of World of Warcraft lately (quit FFXI). Trying to level up my Night-Elf Hunter. He is currently lvl 8 or 9. Can't wait until lvl 10 to ge the pet quest so that I may tame and control pete, etc. I have also been playing a lot of CS lately. Fun stuff. Well, that is about it for today. Fare well!

I have been really busy lately. I have not even had a chance to come to this website. Oh well. Work is becoming really stressful so I am going to quit. I also am doing a lot of school work and studies. Considering I am a senior in high school, I really need to work hard. I am going to try and get into the ARt Institute of Pittsburgh, so that I may pursue my dream of becoming a 3D rendering and modeling animator. I would one day like to get a job working for Pixar, the famous animation company.

I NEED SLEEP!!!

This week seems to be going by pretty fast. I cannot wait to go to the NCSU game Saturday. I forget who they play though... That is horrible considering how much of a fan I am, haha. Well, I woke up this morning and was in a pretty good mood. I hope the day flows smoothly. I must admit, I am quite tired so I might not be able to make it through all of my classes without sleeping a little bit. I cannot wait to get on FFXI this weekend. I'm so excited to be able to start playing again.

I fear that my depression has taken on a whole new stage. It really sucks, because I haven't been happy or in a good mood in weeks. I have really been thinking a lot of stuff over these past weeks. Pondering on my life in general. The thoughts I am thinking are sometimes scary, going as far as suicide. Now, I could never actually go through with it (or so I hope), but it is scary that something like that would even come across my mind. It really really sucks, considering nothing makes me happy anymore. Not gaming, not joking around with friends, nothing, nada... The only people that lighten my spirits are my co-workers. My pharmacist and fellow technicians make my day worth living... =D See? haha.

Today pretty much flew by. Hopefully tonight, I will be able to play some Final Fantasy XI, which I haven't played in quite a while. I have to work again tonight... Today at the pharmacy they are giving away flu shots, so hopefully the crowds will be gone by then. BTW, I recommend everyone get a flu shot this year. There isn't nearly the fuss they had last year over shortages. Still feeling down in the dumps, so hopefully that will clear up soon also.

Some thoughts:
I hope that everyone prays for the people in Taunton, Mass. where a dam break is imminent. Engineers are fearing the worst. If the dam breaks, the entire town of Taunton will be flooded with 6' of water. On top of that, if this one breaks, a dam just to the north of it will most likely fail according to engineers in the area. Here is the url for the local news story there: http://www1.whdh.com/news/articles/local/BOS7395/ I recommend you watch the video also so that you can see exactly what these people are facing.

Wow, tonight, at work, it was a madhouse... Am just glad it is over.

Some thoughts...
There is this girl whome I have really really liked ever since I first really got to know her. We have known eachother for months now. I never really thought about it that much until a week or so ago, when I finally realized that my feelings for her were more then just wanting to be friends Now, I am 17 and she is turning 21 soon. I know nothing will ever happen. A few nights ago, I had to get it off my mind, so I told her. To my surprise she knew. She said it was obvious. She also said "You are right, nothing could or would ever happen". I have been kinda depressed the past few months and this just adds to it, lol. What should I do? Now I am 5' 4" and am not good looking. I mean, this has happened to me everytime I have had feelings for a girl, rejection. I guess this is the cause of my depression. Sucks doesn't it?

Hello to all. Today was quite a boring day. I have block scheduling at school, so the class periods are longer, a whole hour and a half... I only have 4 classes a day though. Today I have to go to work. I have a feeling it is not going to be too good of a night, considering it is the usual Monday. Monday's are always the worst, people getting their prescriptions after their doctors being closed on the weekends... *Sigh* I am beginning my flight lessons in the next few weeks so I am quite excited about that. I can't wait!